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Child Like Faith?…

April 5, 2013 By Leave a Comment

Sept 8 2007
“I didn’t mention this before, but I had a chance to go down to AZ. A friend called me and asked if I can take his friend to Phoenix. I said I would let him know, he would also give me money if I went. I need the money right about now. So I went to Wakeham, my elementary school, and got on my knees. I ask “Father if it’s your will for me to go, have a bird fly over my head, parallel meaning yes, and horizontally meaning no. I sat there for about 5 minutes, and I repeated it a few times, I had my arms out and everything, I said “I wait here patiently for an answer Lord.” I did not doubt for a second, I was thinking that the bird was already on it’s way, and bam! Just like that! You like my sound effects? The bird flew horizontally across my head, in between 2 trees that I asked for it to happen. I stayed, and instead I studied.”

As foolish as this story might sound, It holds such an important lesson about faith. It’s amazing how much faith we could actually have. Radical faith I call it. I remember one time I would pray for the mountains to move right in front of me, praise God. This story encourages me that God is listening.

In Matthew 18:1-6 Jesus talks about child like faith. The Disciples were asking who will be the greatest in the kingdom of God. Jesus answers this question beautifully, “Truly I say to you, unless you are converted and become like children, you will not enter the kingdom of heaven.” To be like children? In what way? If you were to go to a park, you will notice something about children. There is no stereotyping, no judging of someone’s outward appearance, and most importantly they receive anything you tell them, have complete trust in what you say.

To be like children? We could learn so much just watching the way children react with other children. I love watching children becoming friends the second they start to interact, a complete stranger but yet a friend. It’s such a beautiful illustration of how God want’s us to become like children, one of many aspects. I pray that we can all attain such faith, faith that can break bondage and save families and friends. Unwavering faith that could change the destiny of many generations that are ahead. Faith that can make room for God to move among us (Hebrews 11:1-40).

 

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He Feels and Understands

April 5, 2013 By Leave a Comment

Aug 28 Tue 1035pm 2007

“I didn’t mention this yesterday, but a student who is in my class by the name of Jorge lost his father about a week ago. I asked God to give me the right words to say to this man. i never really went to him, i was waiting on him. At break time, i was in my car reading the word, when all of a sudden he passed by. He noticed that i had a huge dent in my right head light, (my phone fell in a cup of water, i took it out trying to take the battery out when all of a sudden this car comes out of nowhere and i hit it) i told him to sit down, he came in and i started, “I know it’s hard for you to hear them ask you how you been, and how’s everything, how you feeling. You know, you can help somebody out with your story? All you can do now is honor his name. Look forward, and do good, make him proud.” He told me a lot of personal stuff, and i listened, i didn’t have much to say, i never been in that situation where somebody’s dad passed away. But i told him that I was praying for him. He is a very strong man, i can feel it. He’ll be just fine.”

(2 Corinthians 1:3-4) “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies and God of all comfort, who comforts us in all our affliction so that we will be able to comfort those who are in any affliction with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God.”

Before I came to Christ, I never understood why bad things would happen to us. How we blame God for everything. How we always want answers for the tragedies. Who are we to do such a thing? He is sovereign, He is omniscient, He knows all things. We live in a sinful world, where Satan and his dominions are always looking to cause trouble. God has given man the liberty of freewill, and with that, there are consequences. You see, we go through things so that we may give Him the glory that He deserves, and at the same time, because of His great mercy and grace, God uses our pain so that we help others who are undergoing the same thing. Friends, God loves us so much, He knows how it feels to lose someone.

He created all of humanity, and only to find out that they have rejected His love. His Son Jesus Christ, endured all that a man can endure in order to become the sacrifice for all mankind. He needed to experience it for himself. How do you think God felt when He had to separate himself from Jesus for that moment as He bore the sins of the world? So know this, God is your comfort, He knows and feels your pain. Please, don’t bypass this entry and move on to the next. Receive His love and comfort for your pain. Sing a song to Him, glorify His name in the midst and He will meet you. He is that faithful. Let’s pray. “Lord I need you. Be my comfort in the midst of affliction. I may not understand why I am going to through this, but I know that you are sovereign and just. The question is not WHY am I going to through this? but WHAT are YOU trying to show me and teach me from this trial. Give me the strength to endure and the wisdom to help others who are also undergoing the same trial. I love you Lord, and my trust is in you. Amen”

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Being God?…

March 13, 2013 By Leave a Comment

Sept 7 2007
“I was sitting in front of Monica’s work (My ex girlfriend). I wanted to wait for her to get out, it was about that time for her shift to be over. As I was sitting there, I was thinking… What am I doing?! I have tried talking to her about God, she listens but I realized that she wasn’t really listening with a true heart. I just don’t want to give up on her, but then I don’t want to scare her away. I decided to leave, I have done my share with her. I said “Your will be done Father”. Ill just leave it to Him.”

1 Corinthians 3:6-7 “I planted, Apollos watered, but God was causing the growth. So then neither the one who plants nor the one who waters is anything, but God who causes the growth.”

Matthew 10:16 “I am sending you out like sheep among wolves. Therefore be as shrewd as snakes and as innocent as doves.”

I realized something while reading this entry and reflecting on my past. Sometimes we try to play God while witnessing. We tend to think that it’s our job to convert on the spot while sharing with others. Always trying to push the poor man/woman to get the truth through their heads right away. We try being God, subconsciously. We need to check our hearts when we are witnessing to others. Are we doing it for our own gain? selfish motives maybe?… Like Paul says, one plant’s the seed and the other waters it, but God brings the growth.

We do what we can to share, and that’s it. Allow the Holy Spirit to do the rest. When you start pushing and stressing it on them, they pull away. They look at it as a mere joke. It’s the number one reason why people pull away from God. Because extremists over do it. Their approach is not with love but with emotion and a lack of knowledge. Be as shrewd as snakes, but gentle as a dove Jesus said. Let’s return back to the basics and the foundation of our faith, and learn the art of the Holy Spirit and to show love that they’re desperately seeking after. Mother Teresa said it best:

“The biggest disease today is not leprosy or tuberculosis, but rather the feeling of being unwanted”

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Feeling Overwhelmed While Serving?…

March 5, 2013 By Leave a Comment

When I was serving in my local church, I would feel so overwhelmed! I was pulled in so many directions in ministry. Worship and lead over here, teach the kids over there, serve the pastor, be an example to those who are new to the church. I remember a time when I would have to run to the kids church right after leading worship! People would try to thank me for leading them into God’s presence, but I was too busy to listen and to appreciate those moments. It almost felt like a performance, and I was the main actor, in all honesty. At times I felt like I was serving man rather than serving God. We are to serve one another, (1 peter 4:10) I am not rejecting that, but If you are serving the man rather than God? Then that’s a problem. Allow me to expound a bit about my experience.

I learned that we don’t always have to do so much in ministry, to a point that we exhaust ourselves. Sometimes we think that we are held responsible for using our gifts and not letting them rot. Rather than using our gifts in one particular way and being effective. Paul stresses that we should use our gifts and distribute them among the church, as we should (1Corinthians 12). But may I ask one thing… Are you being effective? Are you using wisdom and discernment from the Holy Spirit to guide you with your gifts? Or are you jumping with passion at every opportunity and relying on your own emotions to make the decisions for you? (Proverbs 19:2)

You see, God loves you for just the way you are. You don’t have to perform at every opportunity that arises in front of you. Use wisdom and make sure that it’s the Holy Spirit that is leading you. God is pleased by just you being near Him, and listening (Luke 10:38). Spend time with Him, talk to Him. Ask Him your questions, or just vent to Him. I challenge you, do just this… and He will guide your direction.

 

 

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A Beautiful Mess…

March 2, 2013 By Leave a Comment

Have you ever wondered why you go through the things you go through? That God is to blame? That you should have done it a certain way in order to avoid the situation or try to reverse the outcome? That you will never know why things happen, it’s just the way it is? Throw those thoughts out friends! Look at all the things that you have gone through? The endless but meaningful trials that have made you who you are now. Do you have regrets? You shouldn’t. You never had control in the first place. You are who you are because that’s the way God made you, and be proud of that! Look at your loved ones, they love you because of you. Because God the Father molded you from those trials prior to where you are now. God is in control and I wouldn’t have it any other way. We would lose our minds if we were in control! God did not waste His time and put you through all those trials for no reason? He made you so that you can become all that you can possibly be for His glory. All trials are for you to be molded into the man or woman He has called you to be. To become more like Him. To be called His child. To bring forth His divine purpose. It’s all in His hands friends. And it’s all, A Beautiful Mess.

Romans 5:3-4 “More than that, we rejoice in our sufferings, knowing that suffering produces endurance, and endurance produces character, and character produces hope.”

Hebrews 12:6 “For the Lord disciplines the one he loves, and he chastens (to inflict suffering upon for purposes of moral improvement) every son whom he receives.”

Let’s pray

“Father, thank you for who you are. Thank you for everything that I go through, for I know it’s not  in vain. Forgive me of my arrogance and ignorance. When I go through my trials that you have ordained, give me the strength to overcome, and the wisdom to gain understanding to learn from the trial. Rather than asking why am I going through this? What can I learn from it instead, and how can I apply it for the next trial. I want to be everything that you have called me to be. I accept the correction that you bring to my life. I accept that you are Sovereign, for it is all for your glory. You know best. I love you Lord, Your will be done, In Jesus name, amen.”

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My First Post!

January 15, 2013 By Leave a Comment

So blessed and excited to finally post up the content about myself, and the purpose for this website! Couldn’t have done it without Steve, thank you.

Stay tuned!

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